well, i think it’s a date. he said “we should meet up for lunch or something.” he lives in boston, i’m living 45 minutes outside of the city..kind of. in the 3 weeks i have been in massachusetts, i think i have only been in the state for a total of 7 days. the rest of my time has been in new hampshire, at a nice house with mountain views and a pool. he knows i have been up there, but i don’t think he realizes just how much time i have been spending there. he works near the town i sometimes live in massachusetts. so i think he’s being nice and has suggested we meet up for “lunch or something” out in the suburbs of boston for convenience to both of us.
but for some reason, i am procrastinating on setting up this date..or whatever it is. i want to go out with him. i wanted to go out with him 5 years ago when we knew each other before and i’m so glad he wants to go out with me now. but i’m nervous and i’m not in my comfort zone. i don’t want to go out in the suburbs for lunch during the week in a town i’m not familiar with. i want to go out in the city at night, for some drinks and maybe dinner, and then take a cab home at the end of the night. i want to be busy with a job during the week, happy hours with co-workers and friends, and errands to run after work. and i want to have my own apartment in the city, away from my parents, in a neighborhood i know. that’s my comfort zone. but i’m still looking for a job and i probably won’t be living in the city for at least another month.
so what do i do? i know, it’s simple, just suck it up and meet him for lunch. that’s what my friends say and i’ll admit, that is the most logical thing to do. but what have i been doing? i’ve been procrastinating. he wanted to meet up at the end of last week, but i ended up not staying in massachusetts. i called him on friday and told him i had been in nh the whole week and was staying up there for the weekend. the call went well. he actually picked up and sounded glad that i called, but sounded disappointed that i wasn’t going to be around for the weekend. i told him i have an interview this week and he asked me about it. he actually sounded interested in what i had to say. he sounded glad that i would be returning to massachusetts on sunday and told me to call him when i'm back.
well, it’s lunchtime on monday. i am sitting in massachusetts and am going to drive back up to nh in a half hour or so. i should have called him yesterday, arranged to meet up today for lunch, and then start my drive up north. but, i didn’t. now i am going to call him tonight and tell him i’m not in massachusetts and we will have to put off this “meeting” even more. why am i doing this? i want to go out with him and i don’t want him to think i’m not interested. i don’t usually get this nervous about going out with someone because i know it’s not really a big deal. but i keep putting this off. why?
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at least you finally called him! he sounds like a good guy!
i think you're probably right, and it has to do with being out of your comfort zone. you could always meet somewhere closer to the city if you'd feel a little better about that. near where you went to school perhaps? i have a couple other ideas that we can discuss.
go out with him!!!
It sounds as if both of you may be stepping out of your comfort zones. You know, it could be a good thing!
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