i'm back!

hello. how are you? it’s been awhile. i haven’t really been too busy to write, but a lot has gone on in the past few weeks and i have been out of my routine. on june 30th, i officially moved out of the city i have lived in for the past 3 years. i am still in shock that i don’t live there. i feel like i’m just taking a little vacation and will be going back to my apartment on e. 74th street soon. but that’s not the case. i am back in new england.

right now, i am between jobs, between houses/apartments, between states, and overall between lives. that’s what i feel like. i feel like i left my life in new york and now i’m waiting for my life in boston to start.

i’m living with my parents right now..kind of. they are between homes themselves. they are currently living in an apartment 45 minutes outside of boston and will move into their new house an hour outside of boston in a couple weeks. their apartment is small for 3 people, so i have been spending time with my sister at their house in new hampshire, which they sold and will be moving out of in august. so, not only am i between apartments of my own, but i am between houses of my parents.

the only thing holding up the next part of my life is a job. i probably should have worked harder at finding a job before i moved back, but i’m not sure that would have helped much. it’s the summer – slow hiring season for the jobs i am looking for. i was stressed out at my last job, so i was looking forward to having some time off, but i’ve calmed down and i’m ready for a job. i have an interview coming up later this week/next week, so that is something to look forward to and i’m supposed to hear about some other jobs from a recruiter this week. so, i'm hoping something happens soon. because once i get a job, i could find an apartment in boston, and get my life started again.

last weekend i went out in boston with some friends - the first time i had hung out with people my age since i moved. i hadn’t seen them for a couple years and i still felt like a visitor to the city, so i was feeling a little off. while we were out that night, i ran into a bunch of people from my college, who i haven’t seen for 3 years? 4 years? one of those people just so happened to be a guy i had a crush on since freshman year. he is the last person i thought i’d run into because when moving back, i actually thought about the possibility of running into him and wondering what would happen. well, we ended up talking most of the night. i don’t really know what i was talking about because i was in shock from running into him and wasn’t really feeling myself all night - but, he ended up asking me out! he wanted to go out this week. but, he lives in boston and i don’t. and i’m so between lives, i’m just not really ready for a date right now. but, i haven’t been on a date forever and i want to make out with someone! i need a job, so i could live in boston and go on this date!

but, i am trying to embrace this time off. it is the summer, so it is nice to not be stuck indoors all day. everyone i talk to who has a job says they're jealous that i don’t have to work. and, do you know what? once i get a job and i’m back to waking up early and paying rent and bills, i’m sure i will wish for this time off too. so, today was a successful day of laying out by the pool, working on my tan, and reading a book. tomorrow? who knows. i have absolutely nothing planned.