so i wrote something earlier today that i was going to post right now. but, i'm a procrastinator. i have a new computer and i've had a trial of microsoft office for the past 30 days. everyday i open microsoft word, it tells me how many days i have left until the trial runs out and i always click "remind me later" instead of "buy now." i knew i would buy the software, but i just kept putting off paying for it. but, right now when i went to use word, it wouldn't let me open it because the trial ran out. so, i just bought it, but i now have to wait a week for it to be delivered.
so for now, i'm going to share something that made me laugh out loud to myself in my car today. it was a sign at a gas station that must have been part gas station/part sandwich shop or something. the sign said:
YOU CAN NOT BEAT OUR MEAT
TASTE IT
i still think it's funny. it's just so random. even if the sign was at a butcher shop i would think it's funny, but the fact that it was at a place that's mainly a gas station made it even more funny.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
i have this date that i’m supposed to go on
well, i think it’s a date. he said “we should meet up for lunch or something.” he lives in boston, i’m living 45 minutes outside of the city..kind of. in the 3 weeks i have been in massachusetts, i think i have only been in the state for a total of 7 days. the rest of my time has been in new hampshire, at a nice house with mountain views and a pool. he knows i have been up there, but i don’t think he realizes just how much time i have been spending there. he works near the town i sometimes live in massachusetts. so i think he’s being nice and has suggested we meet up for “lunch or something” out in the suburbs of boston for convenience to both of us.
but for some reason, i am procrastinating on setting up this date..or whatever it is. i want to go out with him. i wanted to go out with him 5 years ago when we knew each other before and i’m so glad he wants to go out with me now. but i’m nervous and i’m not in my comfort zone. i don’t want to go out in the suburbs for lunch during the week in a town i’m not familiar with. i want to go out in the city at night, for some drinks and maybe dinner, and then take a cab home at the end of the night. i want to be busy with a job during the week, happy hours with co-workers and friends, and errands to run after work. and i want to have my own apartment in the city, away from my parents, in a neighborhood i know. that’s my comfort zone. but i’m still looking for a job and i probably won’t be living in the city for at least another month.
so what do i do? i know, it’s simple, just suck it up and meet him for lunch. that’s what my friends say and i’ll admit, that is the most logical thing to do. but what have i been doing? i’ve been procrastinating. he wanted to meet up at the end of last week, but i ended up not staying in massachusetts. i called him on friday and told him i had been in nh the whole week and was staying up there for the weekend. the call went well. he actually picked up and sounded glad that i called, but sounded disappointed that i wasn’t going to be around for the weekend. i told him i have an interview this week and he asked me about it. he actually sounded interested in what i had to say. he sounded glad that i would be returning to massachusetts on sunday and told me to call him when i'm back.
well, it’s lunchtime on monday. i am sitting in massachusetts and am going to drive back up to nh in a half hour or so. i should have called him yesterday, arranged to meet up today for lunch, and then start my drive up north. but, i didn’t. now i am going to call him tonight and tell him i’m not in massachusetts and we will have to put off this “meeting” even more. why am i doing this? i want to go out with him and i don’t want him to think i’m not interested. i don’t usually get this nervous about going out with someone because i know it’s not really a big deal. but i keep putting this off. why?
but for some reason, i am procrastinating on setting up this date..or whatever it is. i want to go out with him. i wanted to go out with him 5 years ago when we knew each other before and i’m so glad he wants to go out with me now. but i’m nervous and i’m not in my comfort zone. i don’t want to go out in the suburbs for lunch during the week in a town i’m not familiar with. i want to go out in the city at night, for some drinks and maybe dinner, and then take a cab home at the end of the night. i want to be busy with a job during the week, happy hours with co-workers and friends, and errands to run after work. and i want to have my own apartment in the city, away from my parents, in a neighborhood i know. that’s my comfort zone. but i’m still looking for a job and i probably won’t be living in the city for at least another month.
so what do i do? i know, it’s simple, just suck it up and meet him for lunch. that’s what my friends say and i’ll admit, that is the most logical thing to do. but what have i been doing? i’ve been procrastinating. he wanted to meet up at the end of last week, but i ended up not staying in massachusetts. i called him on friday and told him i had been in nh the whole week and was staying up there for the weekend. the call went well. he actually picked up and sounded glad that i called, but sounded disappointed that i wasn’t going to be around for the weekend. i told him i have an interview this week and he asked me about it. he actually sounded interested in what i had to say. he sounded glad that i would be returning to massachusetts on sunday and told me to call him when i'm back.
well, it’s lunchtime on monday. i am sitting in massachusetts and am going to drive back up to nh in a half hour or so. i should have called him yesterday, arranged to meet up today for lunch, and then start my drive up north. but, i didn’t. now i am going to call him tonight and tell him i’m not in massachusetts and we will have to put off this “meeting” even more. why am i doing this? i want to go out with him and i don’t want him to think i’m not interested. i don’t usually get this nervous about going out with someone because i know it’s not really a big deal. but i keep putting this off. why?
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
i'm back!
hello. how are you? it’s been awhile. i haven’t really been too busy to write, but a lot has gone on in the past few weeks and i have been out of my routine. on june 30th, i officially moved out of the city i have lived in for the past 3 years. i am still in shock that i don’t live there. i feel like i’m just taking a little vacation and will be going back to my apartment on e. 74th street soon. but that’s not the case. i am back in new england.
right now, i am between jobs, between houses/apartments, between states, and overall between lives. that’s what i feel like. i feel like i left my life in new york and now i’m waiting for my life in boston to start.
i’m living with my parents right now..kind of. they are between homes themselves. they are currently living in an apartment 45 minutes outside of boston and will move into their new house an hour outside of boston in a couple weeks. their apartment is small for 3 people, so i have been spending time with my sister at their house in new hampshire, which they sold and will be moving out of in august. so, not only am i between apartments of my own, but i am between houses of my parents.
the only thing holding up the next part of my life is a job. i probably should have worked harder at finding a job before i moved back, but i’m not sure that would have helped much. it’s the summer – slow hiring season for the jobs i am looking for. i was stressed out at my last job, so i was looking forward to having some time off, but i’ve calmed down and i’m ready for a job. i have an interview coming up later this week/next week, so that is something to look forward to and i’m supposed to hear about some other jobs from a recruiter this week. so, i'm hoping something happens soon. because once i get a job, i could find an apartment in boston, and get my life started again.
last weekend i went out in boston with some friends - the first time i had hung out with people my age since i moved. i hadn’t seen them for a couple years and i still felt like a visitor to the city, so i was feeling a little off. while we were out that night, i ran into a bunch of people from my college, who i haven’t seen for 3 years? 4 years? one of those people just so happened to be a guy i had a crush on since freshman year. he is the last person i thought i’d run into because when moving back, i actually thought about the possibility of running into him and wondering what would happen. well, we ended up talking most of the night. i don’t really know what i was talking about because i was in shock from running into him and wasn’t really feeling myself all night - but, he ended up asking me out! he wanted to go out this week. but, he lives in boston and i don’t. and i’m so between lives, i’m just not really ready for a date right now. but, i haven’t been on a date forever and i want to make out with someone! i need a job, so i could live in boston and go on this date!
but, i am trying to embrace this time off. it is the summer, so it is nice to not be stuck indoors all day. everyone i talk to who has a job says they're jealous that i don’t have to work. and, do you know what? once i get a job and i’m back to waking up early and paying rent and bills, i’m sure i will wish for this time off too. so, today was a successful day of laying out by the pool, working on my tan, and reading a book. tomorrow? who knows. i have absolutely nothing planned.
right now, i am between jobs, between houses/apartments, between states, and overall between lives. that’s what i feel like. i feel like i left my life in new york and now i’m waiting for my life in boston to start.
i’m living with my parents right now..kind of. they are between homes themselves. they are currently living in an apartment 45 minutes outside of boston and will move into their new house an hour outside of boston in a couple weeks. their apartment is small for 3 people, so i have been spending time with my sister at their house in new hampshire, which they sold and will be moving out of in august. so, not only am i between apartments of my own, but i am between houses of my parents.
the only thing holding up the next part of my life is a job. i probably should have worked harder at finding a job before i moved back, but i’m not sure that would have helped much. it’s the summer – slow hiring season for the jobs i am looking for. i was stressed out at my last job, so i was looking forward to having some time off, but i’ve calmed down and i’m ready for a job. i have an interview coming up later this week/next week, so that is something to look forward to and i’m supposed to hear about some other jobs from a recruiter this week. so, i'm hoping something happens soon. because once i get a job, i could find an apartment in boston, and get my life started again.
last weekend i went out in boston with some friends - the first time i had hung out with people my age since i moved. i hadn’t seen them for a couple years and i still felt like a visitor to the city, so i was feeling a little off. while we were out that night, i ran into a bunch of people from my college, who i haven’t seen for 3 years? 4 years? one of those people just so happened to be a guy i had a crush on since freshman year. he is the last person i thought i’d run into because when moving back, i actually thought about the possibility of running into him and wondering what would happen. well, we ended up talking most of the night. i don’t really know what i was talking about because i was in shock from running into him and wasn’t really feeling myself all night - but, he ended up asking me out! he wanted to go out this week. but, he lives in boston and i don’t. and i’m so between lives, i’m just not really ready for a date right now. but, i haven’t been on a date forever and i want to make out with someone! i need a job, so i could live in boston and go on this date!
but, i am trying to embrace this time off. it is the summer, so it is nice to not be stuck indoors all day. everyone i talk to who has a job says they're jealous that i don’t have to work. and, do you know what? once i get a job and i’m back to waking up early and paying rent and bills, i’m sure i will wish for this time off too. so, today was a successful day of laying out by the pool, working on my tan, and reading a book. tomorrow? who knows. i have absolutely nothing planned.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
i'm done with the city
that it's really. i've lived in nyc for 3 years and i'm just done with it. i've loved living here. i've grown so much and met the most amazing people. and i've seen so much - times square/chrysler building/empire state building at night, softball games in central park, andy warhol paintings at moma, damien rice at radio city music hall, yankee stadium, the transit strike, coney island, mike myers hanging out at a random bar downtown, a mariachi band performing on the 6 train, new yorkers fighting over a parking spot, homemade tzaziki sauce at a store in astoria, anderson cooper speaking at a black tie event at the waldorf astoria, bottle service at clubs in the meatpacking district, $2 pbr at dive bars in alphabet city, rooftop parties with good friends. but it's a different lifestyle here. i miss space and easy access to the mountains, ocean, and city. i miss calmness and relaxation. i miss my family. i miss boston accents.
tomorrow i'm going to give my 2 weeks notice at work and june 30th at 7am, the movers are packing their truck up with everything that has fit into this tiny apartment and are bringing it all back up to massachusetts. it will be a sad day. i'm going to miss my friends here and certain things about new york. but i'm also happy to move back to massachusetts and be near my family and friends again. it is bittersweet.
and to that, i say thank you to new york city for the best years of my life so far. i will miss you.
tomorrow i'm going to give my 2 weeks notice at work and june 30th at 7am, the movers are packing their truck up with everything that has fit into this tiny apartment and are bringing it all back up to massachusetts. it will be a sad day. i'm going to miss my friends here and certain things about new york. but i'm also happy to move back to massachusetts and be near my family and friends again. it is bittersweet.
and to that, i say thank you to new york city for the best years of my life so far. i will miss you.
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